Next month marks the death of a close friend who I thought hoped and wanted to be healed. We prayed a lot, went through inner healing of memories and experiences, deliverance, forgiveness and more healing prayer. Many friends prayed and fasted together yet nothing seemed to turn, I had ideas of what we might have been missing but I did not know exactly what to do.
Trying to walk out a life of healing, healing prayer, forgiveness, inner healing and deliverance can be heart wrenching and difficult. I have seen many miraculous stories and doctor confirmed supernatural healing BUT… the one’s who aren’t healed, that’s the elephant in the room, the discussion many struggle with.
Christians received many charges from Jesus such as;
“Whoever believes in me will do the works I do and greater works… “ Jn 14:12-14
“Heal the sick, raise the dead, please the lepers, cast out demons…” Matt 10:8
“Heal the sick and say the Kingdom of heaven is near you…” Luke 10:9
The above verses are a sample of where my expectation is set when I go to pray for the sick, I don’t enter with an attitude of “Now what will I tell them if they are’t healed?” (more on this in another blog post)
Now back to the blog title.
There is power in Heaven that I do not understand, it is beyond my human mind, it is greater than me yet is available through me (and all of us as Christians). There is a union and power in the Trinity (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) that is beyond my understanding and I’m okay with that. I will gain knowledge my whole life yet when I die there will be things that “I don’t know.” There seems to be comfort in having all the answers, sometimes this comfort transfers to our friends who are in turmoil. Often times we don’t understand and we don’t have all the answers so the statement “I don’t know” or “I don’t have the answer” is just as comforting to a friend as having all the answers.
Going back to our friend that died nearly a year ago, her husband and I have become very close friends, we’ve discussed the in’s and outs of what we may have missed in prayer but in the end my answer is “I don’t know” what may have brought healing, “I don’t know” what or if we missed something, “I don’t know” if my theology of healing is perfect (I actually know it’s not perfect!), “I don’t know” why the last person with stage 4 cancer was healed and your spouse died. What I do know is that I won’t stop praying for the sick, the down and out, the hurting or the successful because I don’t have all the answers, I will keep praying expectantly.
“I don’t know” IS honest, loving, true, faithful, thoughtful, meaningful, and more when delivered in this context.
Now do you see the power in “I don’t know”?