Remember as a child when you jumped down your first set of stairs? Not just one step but you soared over two or three steps? I remember not having 100% success on the first try and 90% never cut it; 90% was always catching my heel on the edge of the last step and either face planting or tearing up my palms pretty good. My “jumping off of things” career did not begin here, I probably got a thrill as a child stepping off of a door sill. After that I most likely jumped off of a book. Then on from that I slid off of a couch, then my parents high bed which, prepared me for the task of jumping off of my first step. I could hear the music from “Chariots of Fire” and the crowd roared . . . . maybe the dogs wagged and my brother’s boom box was playing Springsteen’s “Born to Run.” Either way it was an epic moment and an epic feat I was about to attempt. I soon made my first jump into the record book of 3 year olds. It was common sport, yet unpopular with the old people, to jump off the platform after church. The stairs at the entrance were equally exhilarating and, I think, equally annoying to the aging crowd.
I never moved on to jumping off of houses into pools until I was in my 30’s and my kids were expecting Dad to be just as brave as other men. I never continued into extreme sports and BASE jumping, life took over and pain didn’t seem as rewarding as it once had. I guess I was getting older. Once again I am at a place of jumping off the proverbial door sill . . . . blogging. The reason I am blogging is that about 8 months ago I jumped off a step that previously seemed too large to surmount. I had stuck with jumping off of the safe curb of ministry, leading a home group and praying for a few people. It was a comfortable jump, I knew it well, it was hard to get hurt and low risk. Little did I know this was all about to change.
I invited an itinerant minister to speak to our ministry team as well as help them recognize their giftings. He was one who functioned highly in the prophetic, healing, and teaching. After this meeting, something inspired me to ask this man if I could accompany him and see what was going on outside of Southern California. He said ‘Yes’ and I booked a trip to Dallas, Texas. Uh oh, I had stepped up onto a step that had some risk attached. With some butterflies in my stomach and feeling very inadequate, I made the trip to Texas. I jumped off . . . . and it was very rewarding. I found a new part of the calling God had on my life which made me seek the next step to jump off. I will spare you the details but now I am in a place where I feel as if I have jumped off a few single story buildings ready to face plant but, somehow, landed on my feet.
Just like the parable of the talents in Matthew 25:13-30, I want to be the one who invests and risks for a reward. Or to relate it to David when he took on Goliath, in 1 Samuel 17:36, David declares he has killed a bear and a lion, why should he fear this giant? I’m sure David started by killing rabbits for dinner then snakes, coyotes, wolves and so on, I doubt he just up and killed the bear with no skills.
You have been given a skill set and a gifting, you must invest it. Jump off the next step and see what is in store for your skills and giftings, they will grow to fight larger giants and reap larger rewards.
I feel I have stepped out into that place where I feel a little uncomfortable but still safe. Seeing and moving in the prophetic is a very rewarding experience thus far. But has also left a lot of questions that can only be answered in continuing to pray for others. Up until five months ago I don’t think I’ve ever prayed for anyone that I didn’t know. This is a new huge jump/step for me. The inadequacy I feel can be so overwhelming at times. So I am thankful to know you Kevin, and others in this new season.
Luke gibson said:
Very well put, it’s easy to get comfortable and not take that next step. Thanks for the encouragement!
I am excited for you as you pursue the opportunities God is revealing . We will pray for you and your family as your horizons expand.
Renee Blankartz said:
Love this Kevin, very encouraging!!!! Blessings and love from Idaho.
Jon Kayden Hall said:
Great article, thanks for sharing! The best strategy to jumping in a cold pool is to dive head first and not to stick your toe in it and consider…best way to jump off a high cliff is to do it right away. Seems the longer you wait the more difficult it gets to jump. Of course there was that time I decided to do a slow flip off of a 40 ft. cliff and landed in the water flat on my back….ouch.
I just rounded up my band and started practicing again for the first time in 11 months! Its not that I feel particularly inspired at the moment. I am moving forward in obedience to things I have seen years ago even though I am not feeling them now.
My main thought in doing so is this: Generosity. I have been in survival mode and it has caused me to be pretty stingy with my gifts and in my relationships. Reason being I just haven’t felt like I have much to give. The truth? The fullness of the Godhead lives in me and the doors to heaven are open to me.
I want to be generous. Generous by opening up more deeply and pouring forth all that I am. How can I be ok to sit at home when both my wife and I and close friends have seen visions and dreams of God’s glory being poured out on people as I play music? I guess its time to step forward and commit to playing even if I don’t feel like it.
I also created a couple paintings to give to close friends when I really didn’t have time to do so. Made it happen, and it ended up being so life giving! Investing more time in relationships, drawing a hard fast line in tithing even when the money really has not been there to do so—that has been a risk—taking time out of my day to meditate in deep places with God. I have been noticing more of a harmony in my life developing and more focus in my intentions. God is good!
Looking forward to hearing more details of what’s going on in your life. I actually thought about giving you a call last night, so you’ll be hearing from me soon.
Jon Kayden Hall said:
Blog looks nice! Love the picture of you guys!